Well first I'd like to say- wooooo! First Geek Drop blog. *stretches fingers* Here we go.
Well I've had lots of time on my hands over the last few days as some of you may know. I've been sick, sick, sick and, up until today, hadn't been outside since Saturday. So, that leaves a person with lots of thinking time. Well, in my case, lots more thinking time, as I'm constantly thinking this, that, or the other thing. So this is one of my thoughts ...
I had this plan. I had this great wonderful plan of moving myself up and away from here for a little while. It was a lovely plan. Full of sunshine and fun. Now, with the job market as unstable as it is, these plans have been put on pause for a bit. And here I am, back in the same office, surrounded by the same people, again...
Now, I probably shouldn't complain ...
There are sooo many out there who have lost their jobs or are worried about them at least. As of now, losing my job has not been a concern at all. I mean, unless I come in here and threaten my bosses life, I don't think my job is going anywhere. My bosses are great that way. They like the staff they have. And it's so very rare for anyone to get fired from here. Yes I know no one is indispensable. But, trust me. You just have to work here to understand. I should feel grateful for this. And, believe me, I am. Thing is ...
... now it's lights out ...
I just can't help but feel like a little light at the end of my tunnel has gone out. I'm not unhappy exactly. I've still got lots here. People and things to figure things out with in all honesty. And I would have definitely missed my family and a few of of my close friends had I left as soon as I was hoping for. But it would have been an adventure. A small discovery all my own, of a place very unlike here. I was looking forward to that. It's exciting to think what you can be in a different place. I don't say 'who' you can be because, for me, I'm always who I am no matter where you put me. But, just what you can become, what you can see and find out about yourself in a different environment. Surrounded by the unknown. I love adventure. This was to be one of the biggest of all.
This is not to say that I have given up all plans of this.
No. But I am trying to figure out a few other things first. I'd be giving up something that's meant a lot to me in the last few years if I leave. I thought it was what I wanted to do. Maybe it still is. Maybe not. I'm still working that out. Although, in the end, I think I may still go for it because, well, giving up a dream would be the worst thing to do of all ... wouldn't it? I think so. Guess it's just going to take me a wee bit longer than I thought is all...or maybe I'll just say- "screw it all" and take my chances and hop on that plane a few months down the line. And just hope for the best ...
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tap tap tap.. is this thing on?
We have had lots of talks about this my dear friend. (at 3am with fantastic tunes for background music) The thoughts of which road to take has been weighing heavily on your heart for some time now. I also know that you think things through. You will have a plan B and probably a plan C too. This is your time. Soon the right choice will reveal itself to you. Until then, have fun with the decision before you. Planning and dreaming are the best part.
Wellington Florida
Married
I agree with green if it is meant to be it will show itself and it will happen. It may not be right away but time will tell. Yes your right that times are tight and jobs are few and far between. It doesn't mean you cant still job search where you want to head to. Who knows even in these times you might find there is a job there looking now for a wonderful girl like yourself with your skills. I agree don't kill a dream - if there is a will there is a way. Just be very realistic and plan it out and be prepared as best you can. Either way we are here for you and were only a few keystrokes away
In a land of wonderous things...
yes, we have talked this to death and i feel like i should apologize to you *lol* you always end up listening to all my doubts, heartaches, etc...i appreciate your ear and your advice sooooo much! *hugs*
thank you and thanks debs. you're right. planning and dreaming is half the fun. and i shouldn't let the way things are now stop me from going after what i want. i never have before. and i know i can count on you guys to come rescue me should i ever become the crazy cat lady. *lmao
"Most everyone's mad here.
"You may have noticed that I'm not all there myself."
Philly
and i know i can count on you guys to come rescue me should i ever become the crazy cat lady. *lmao
Well I'll at least come rescue the cats! Plus, with those allergies, I think it'd be quite difficult for you to be a crazy cat lady.
You're an amazing chickadee... You're plans will take flight (unlike those poor penguins) most likely when you least expect it.
Do a little dance...
Wellington Florida
Married
and i know i can count on you guys to come rescue me should i ever become the crazy cat lady. *lmao
Well I'll at least come rescue the cats!
OMG get out of my head - I was going to post the same thing -
Besides what is wrong with owning a few cats *proud owner of 2 cats*. As long as you dont really go crazy and start collecting kids and become a octomom part 2.
I'm sure you will be fine and since we cover a good part of the country (green out west - critter and missb up north and me in the deep south) so at some point we can meet you with a hand full of happy pills if needed.